A Short Year In Review 2009 Another One Bites The Dust...

Whoohoo happy 2010 oh well almost lest hold off on the streamers and booze. 2009 was a year full of great things and some awful things. Since I'm a positive person I get the awful out of the way first I was called a monster and let go from a job I honestly adored, being fired wasn't the awful part honestly it was the judgement of my character that upset me the most. But the past is the past and I am over the anger now with a sunny attitude and a gorgeous smile if I do say so myself I move on to the great part of this glorious year that was. Where to start with a year full of great stories, movies, and music. The music part was mostly OK this year no life changing albums were released in my eyes, granted that doesn't mean there weren't some notables along the way. One in particular Skillet's Awake proved to be an phenomenal album and an amazing follow up to their CD Comatose. I have my friend Allen to thank for introducing my ears to Skillet. Who would have thought christian music could kick so much ass. honestly that's the only CD that really comes into my mind as a memorable this year. Since I'm sure many of you have watched the news I won't regale you with the stories of the year all I will say is I'm so glad that Jon and Kate are divorced its about time. Now on to my favorite subject cinematic adventures, and wow what a great year it has been with titles such as Avatar, Star Trek, District 9, and so many others. Next year should prove to have some good ones as well at least I hope. All in all it was a decent year with a few bumps in the road along the way. Its kind of funny the year is ending with a change I never saw coming. I am officially a student now and like my mother says everything happens for a reason and I think me being let go was the punch in the nuts I need to get my life on track and work towards a future and career. So I say raise a glass and lets salute the year that was and the promise of prosperity in the future cheers mates!!!!


Josh out for the last time in '09


Lets make 2010 count!!!!!!!!!

I would ask where waldo is but I cant seem to find my waldo costume

So its been a great many moons since my last post and thats probably because nothing exciting has happened to me as of late. For my readers and fans alike I apologize for the lack of words from me but that will soon change I have been thinking of a great many topics to write about and I have come up with a surprising number of revelations if you will. so for this post im just going to wing it since I have already started rambling and seem to have no concise sense of direction at the moment. So a few new things in the life of Josh. I recently saw District 9 and I would say everyone should go see it the way the director Neil Blomkamp makes the prawns feel life like and show emotion though actions and their eyes is great to see. The visuals were impressive and the aliens in the world blended really well thanks to weta workshop the guys behind lord of the rings. all around it was a great sci fi trip I am excited to see what they plan to do for a sequel that is if they do a sequel which I hope they do. I also recently picked up the new guitar hero, its pretty much the same old game with new tracks and a new guitar. the track list is an odd variety it seems like they were trying to please everyone instead of staying focused on songs that were more on the actual guitar side. dont get me wrong it doesnt suck but it could have been better. Oh well it will tide me over until Halo:odst which comes out on the 22nd. which looks to be a strong entry in the series despite the lack of Master chief. what else well I am writing this from the desk at the junction super 8 which if you know me I work out in fruita well always but tonight I am helping out and working out here and so far its going well I have checked in about 5 or so rooms so time is going by pretty fast that or this massive monster drink my boss got me is making me go bonkers. Despite my objections about coming out here its not as bad as my fears would have lead me to believe which makes me very happy since I am no longer with a knot in my stomach like I did when I first walked in. so I guess thats really all thats new in the glorious world of Josh I promise the next post will be more focused and wise and maybe have a valid purpose or point who knows I mean it is me after all and I have a screw loose haha

As Always
Josh Out!!

Reconciliation....The First Step Is Often The Hardest

How does one go about reconciling with ones past? Or get back in touch with lost family or friends? Lately the latter has been a buzz in my mind, Family. As some know but many don't I have a sister whom I have not spoken with in it must be about seven years or more now. We live in different states now and with people asking about her has starting the cogs in my head. Should I try to get back in touch with her after so many years? What would I even say, there is no easy answer to that at least not an easy one I can find. The more I think about this the more it bugs me, Its gets to me more when I see sibling interact with one and other. Sure growing up we had our issues with each other who didn't when your growing up. Does time heal all wounds like some would have you believe? I know my Dad is not excited that I am thinking of writing her to reconnect and that's fine, they have their own stuff to work out. Its weird though I keep saying to myself "just write her and say hi and get the ball rolling" But it seems to be all talk at this point I have yet to take any actual action in this matter. Am I afraid she wont want to be brother and sister again I don't know, But it feels like something some force is holding me back from making that initial contact with her. Maybe my subconscious doesn't want me to its hard to say really cause I feel like it'd be nice to have that part of my life back while at the same time why change the way things are. I know this post has been more questions than answers try looking at it from my perspective I'm all confused as what to do about this whole situation reconcile or leave it be. Only I can make the final decision on what ill do obviously but here's hoping I make the smart choice that requires know which one is right the heart or the brain. oh well we shall see......

Halo Golf? It May Just Happen

As an avid gamer I often find myself confused with my beloved industry, they often amaze me in the best ways but every now and then I find myself scratching my head in almost disbelief.
One trend that I feel need to be addressed is franchises that wont go away. You know what I am referring to a game character or series goes on way too long and I feel that shouldn't happen. My most recent mini outrage is with the halo universe. Didn't we already finish the fight? I understand trying to make money from an established franchise but when does it go too far? I love me some halo but I fear it will quickly become like Mario. You know he wont go away he has been in more games than I care to name some very good some just plain awful. It seems like Nintendo's flagship has way over stayed his welcome to me, and with all the recent Halo announcements I can see it wont go away I can see it now coming in 2011 Halo Party or maybe even Halo golf. I know it may seem far fetched to see those games come to fruition but the scary thing about casual games and things like that it may just happen. I honestly hope the Halo universe bows out graciously before their welcome is worn out and gamers get sick and tired of it.

Moving on and staying in the game frame of mind another head scratcher is the difficulty in games these days. I would consider myself an average gamer but I can beat almost any game on the market without too much difficulty or frustration. Yo would think that's a good thing right? wrong. where is the challenge? I remember in my youth playing games and basically getting my ass kicked because games back then were actually hard and required skill to play and master. Like megaman one of my favorites that game is all about timing, pattern recognizing, and all around patience. If you took the wrong power up you would have a hell of a time beating the boss of that stage. Nowadays game difficulty is hardly ever an issue except in a few games here and there i.e Ninja Gaiden. Do I want games to be super difficult almost break a controller difficult certainly not, but that doesn't mean I don't at least want to be challenged. How else are you supposed to get better if you don't have to try a little harder?

Things That Annoy Me As Of Late On The Idiot Box

So lately I have noticed a few things have really started to annoy me on tv. So lets take a journey shall we and lets discover what annoys Josh when it comes to the glowing box we all love.

First is MTV (Music Televison) at least thats what it used to be. If you turn it in on nowadays not only will not find music but nothing music related at all. The Channel that used to have atleast something to do with music is now reduced to a sad channel for drama with such oscar winning shows like Is She really Going Out With Him, where girls are going out with douchebags and it shows off the guys douchebaggery, thats what its about seriously. Another Classic is The X effect where couples are taken to a nice resort esque hotel only to find out their partner has to spend a night with their ex. Its basically a show made to tear people apart.I wont even go into all of their dating and reality shows cause there is way too much crap for me to try andhave enough words in my vast vocabulary to get out my frustration with them. They all lack originality and any sort of promise. Maybe if MTV changed its name this wouldn't bug me as much but the only music I have seen on that channel in a long time was when Michael jackson died they had a day or two of his videos but back to their "original" crap now. lets just call it what it is Drama Television just make it DTV and ill be ok with your silly attemp at dramatics.

Speaking of name changes whats with Sci-Fi switching to SyFy? I mean it not only looks odd but the reasoning itself is just plain silly according to sources the name change is supposed to be less geeky, since Sci-fihas always been associated with geeks and dysfunctional, antisocial boys in their basements with video games and stuff like that. There was always a sneaking suspicion that the name Sci-Fi was holding them back. They also said it gives them a unique word and nets them opportunities to imbue it with the values and the perception that they want. nevertheless the change is here and were stuck with it. lets just hope it doesnt change again and become even stranger than it has already become.

Getting back to the music channel vibe another thing that is starting to annoy me is all the "love" shows on vh1.Flavor Of Love, Rock Of Love, I Love New York, Real Chance At Love, For The Love Of Ray J, Daisy Of Love, Megan Wants A Millionaire. Its like the list will go on forever It seems like whoever comes it second on these shows gets their own show its ridiculous. Like right now Daisy Of Love is apparently at its finale and I know whoever doesnt will is going to get his own show. I applaud them for trying but seriously if you haven't noticed that every time no one finds love, hell brett michaels has tried like 3 times and no love sad huh. I dont get why they keep making them is it a desperate plea for ratings? I dont know but I wish they would just stop helping the sad souls look for "love".

Sticking with the realm of TV whats up with out of sequence marathons? You know what I am referring to lets say your watching an NCIS marathon on USA and one episode has Gibbs in a coma and it says to be continued...and then the next episode is comepletely out of sequence wait Gibbs is fine ahh. I imagine it cant be too hard to keep them in some order so the episodes make an accurate timeline I mean come on.

Semi vs Hotel Dumpster and fence............A Fair Fight?

Title pretty much speaks for itself. last night a semi truck parked in the ajacent parking lot to my hotels brakes were not engaged, so when the driver went into the back of the cab to do something the truck began to roll. As the above pictures show it was not a fair fight.It basically destroyed the fence around our dumpster and the chain link fence behind it and took out a few trees. All this happened right before I showed up for my shift and I gotta say it made my night seemingly fly by. Thankfully no one was hurt in the collision just the hotels property which thanks to insurance should be easily fixable if albeit a hassel.

so short and sweet today

Josh Out!

To Catch A Predator: The Greatest Show Ever??

In a world with such horrible things Im glad to see one network take an awesome stand. I love Predator for well two reasons really;
1. The take pedophiles and freaks off the streets
2. I get to watch these pathetic guys and their just sad excuses, frankly its hilarious

I really dont see how these could be that stupid. I mean even after their caught all they seem to say is "i wasnt going to do anything, just talk" Tonight was one of my favorite episodes ever. They had a guy who walked into the Predator sting house lets call it, completely nude except for his dingy socks. It honestly makes me glad im not a kid anymore or have kids for that matter cause to see all different walks of life fall victim to this sting scares me a little. Maybe victim is the wrong word but you know what I mean. I have seen the deviants range from 20 something idiots to doctors and people who work in a school. I applaud Chris Hansen and the whole Predator team for doing this, who knows maybe the fear of the Hansen walk out stop them from going after kids on the web. I know it wont but we'll never know how many are afraid of that. If you have ever seen the show you know of its importance and awesomeness I for one am thankfull that the show is around and hope it keeps catching these bastards to keep our kids safe on the net.

for safety tips and other ways to help protect you and your family from this please visit the To Catch A Predator website for info and tips.
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/10912603


as always be safe and have fun
Josh Out!

KitKat Nope Not The Candy It's My Kitty

KitKat

I gotta say I love my kitty. She is a goober but still lovable, She is in many ways like me and the longer I have her the more I enjoy having the fur ball around. I remember when I got her its one of my better moments as a person, My friend Stephanie was moving out of her apartment and she couldn't keep KitKat and was dreading the fact that she was going to have to drop her off at the shelter since she could no longer care for her. So I decided i would take her to the shelter for her since she was almost in tears about it. she even wrote a note that I was supposed to give them about KitKat's likes,dislikes and so on. I don't know why it popped into my head but I just said why don't I just keep her? and when I said that she lit up like it was Christmas. See KitKat apparently didn't like anyone but when I went to visit Steph a few times KitKat seemed to like me. So I figured instead of a crap shoot like the shelter where she may not ever find a home I would give her one since she liked me. Its still one of my more proud moments and proves I do in fact have a soul. I have had the little monster for about 2 1/2 years now and she has gotten so good since I've had her. She in a way reminds me of a dog in a sense I say that because she has a few tendencies I have only seen in the canine counter parts. My examples of this are when I put my key in the door to my place she is usually at the door waiting for me all sweet like. Another is once I'm in she follows me around and meows for a good while like hey give me attention. I have started to say when she walks around meowing at me she's just telling me about her night. I have to look at her and say what could you possibly do at night? With that I thought about it and figured it would sound kind of like this...... Meow, Hi kitty how was your night? meow well it started off crazy there I was giving myself a bath and next thing you know i saw a spider! I know right so I got up and stared at him for a while before he crawled away. wow what else? meow well after the spider eluded me I was playing around in your laundry and got my head stuck in a sock! in a sock you say? meow yeah it was pretty scary for a while but I got out I'm good like that. wow cat sounds like you had an interesting night, meow you bet i did. Ok maybe that's a tad crazy but hey so is my cat and I love her since she is always there and makes me feel better when she comes up to me and purs and lays next to me. Generally whatever is wrong with me she can make it better just with her cuteness and that's my KitKat my furry companion.

Words So Simple But So Much Trouble Can Come From Them And Make You A Bastard

Bastard a funny word, its a word some would associate with me and they would be justified come with me as we venture into the mind of me for a bit and lets see what we discover........

Do you have a word you know how to spell but for some reason every now and then the spelling of the word comes up blank in your mind? for me for some odd reason receipt is the word my brain tends to forget why? lord knows but time and again receipt escapes me, I mean the word isn't even a hard word but no it gets lost in the vast mental highway know as my brain. Subject change! So I'm sitting here at work at what is it 3:34 am whilst listening to some Third Eye Blind wondering if I in fact have a semi charmed kind of life. I think introspectively I'd give my life up to this point a 7. Lets face it I'm a bastard in its most pure form I try not to be but years of people treating me like I'm insignificant and not worth while gets to you. Don't get me wrong I'm like maybe 60% bastard and 40% nice. Few see the internal anguish one goes through sure its easy to put on a smile and say a few silly things for laughs but when there are no people around an odd sense of anger fills me. I say its odd because I do it to myself I think things would be better for me if I would not stress over things that frustrate me i generally tend to freak out over the smallest thing and i think about it too much and the more I think about the madder it makes me which if i maybe thought about a solution instead of having a mini panic attack. To get back to the bastard part I say this because I am rude to people for no reason what so ever. The one example that's bugged me for a bit now is how I acted to a co-worker of mine named Cora. What she did was put her food in my box and I acted like an ass about it for no reason really, sure I don't really like other peoples stuff in my box it is a tad annoying but I acted out of turn, instead of asking whats this I acted like a jackass and I am sure made Cora dislike me a bit. According some I have a personality people either love or hate. I feel bad about the way I acted to Cora she didn't deserve that so I need to apologize to her one way or another because in case if I did in fact offend her which I didn't mean to but I probably did an apology would make me feel better about it an hopefully have her understand I didn't mean to act like an ass to her. I take things too far sometimes, I have noticed lately that the filter I have on my mouth has come undone. Words spill out like a flood often with no rhyme or reason when it pops into my head it comes out of the mouth. I need to reseal it because this mouth of mine has gotten me into trouble on a number of occasions, which is regrettable but still happens. The hard part about resealing the annoying box of mine is if I think about what I say I tend to stutter and mess up even the simplest sentence, so you see part good part bad fun huh. Oh well I think i have started to ramble so I shall leave it at that and maybe after I apologize to Cora about my asinine behavior it will bring my ratio back to a human level of like maybe 40% bastard and 60% nice apparently a human level is just a flipped level of how I felt earlier strange. but we'll see hopefully things work out fine cause being an ass isn't fun all the time.

Sands Of Time

Back then, when I got home from work, you were always there waiting for me and that was all I needed, just you. But on that day, when I came back home, the only thing there was that pocketwatch, that and a small piece of paper that had just one word written across it "farewell". For some reason I didn't feel sad or broken up, it just didnt seem real. But slowly I realized that it was real, that you were gone, and little by little I felt something inside of me go numb, after 6 months I made a kind of bet with myself a pledge, that I would leave this place and start a new life if you didnt return by the time the watch stopped. I didnt come here to blame you I, I just wanted to know why, why you disappeared like that?

One Week took so much from the world, makes you wonder why?

Gone This week

Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcet, Michael Jackson, and finally Billy Mays.

How can one week take away so many great icons? It makes me sad to think that they're gone. Within days of each other no less its just shocking to think that they are no longer around to entertain and delight the masses. When I think about them I am filled almost immediately with a smile, for I will not mourn them too much, I will celebrate them. I feel they deserve to be celebrated since they brightened hearts and minds of a great many people. Of the Four mentioned above two of them were rough on me because each of them meant something to me. The first being Michael Jackson, wow that still even days after his death feels weird like it hasn't fully sunk in. The King Of Pop has been in my life since I was tot. I remember learning the thriller dance to perform for a talent show or when my friend Corey and would sing Rockin robin in class. The list can go on and on from the moonwalk which I still cant do no matter how hard I try big guys weren't meant to glide I guess. The sick lean in Smooth Criminal good stuff. I even remember he had a 3d ride at Disneyland I believe it was. Let us not forget he also had a game Moonwalker it was fun I mean what other game has a power that makes you and your enemies burst out in a dance number before the die? I for one cant think of another game like it. Michael lived a life some would call odd and strange. He had his ups and downs but I will always remember him for making me appreciate dance and showmanship no one since him has had such an influence on the music industry and lets face it the world. Now MJ is up in heaven entertaining all the angels like the icon he is. His music will live on and as he once said "If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with" I will always get a tingle down my spine when I hear Thriller cause the master of his craft is gone. all the best for his family. Mj gone too soon He will be missed

Michael Jackson 1958-2009 RIP MJ!

Another sad and Shocking story is Pitchman Billy Mays has also passed on. "His innovative role and impact on the growth and wide acceptance of direct response television cannot be overestimated or easily replaced; he was truly one of a kind" I honestly couldn't have said it any better myself. When I think of Billy I think of all those 3am infomercials from everything to oxi-clean to the dual saw. He almost made me buy stuff so late at night. I was always entertained when one of his infomercials would pop up I would generally watch his more than most because he was so energetic and seemed like he was having a great time doing what he did. Infomercials will never feel the same now that one of the greats is gone. I know seeing his infomercials at night is going to bring a smile to my face since as I said before he was so good at it. Billy you will be missed.

Billy Mays 1958-2009 One of the best pitchmen ever RIP!


It almost feels odd to think that all of this personality was taken away from the world so suddenly. All will be missed greatly.


Josh Out!

Coping with Enochlophobia

I guess I should start off by explaining what Enochlophobia is. Well basically Enochlophobia is a fear of large groups or crowds or to get all technical like

Enochlophobia is the fear of large crowds. This social phobia is a paralyzing fear that can result in the sufferer's fear manifesting in avoiding anxiety-raising situations (running from the situation), having tantrums, crying, excessive sweating, freezing, excessive blushing, or stammering continuously. It stems from the fear of being trampled in a crowd, getting a deadly disease from people within the crowd, getting lost in the crowd, or feeling insignificant when surrounded by a crowd.
" This fear is one that can possibly be genetic and affects women more often than it affects men. Some get so fearful while in crowded areas until they experience chest pains as if having a heart attack, but are actually having a panic attack due to being overly anxious."-- Barbara Burgess, author of Enoclophobia: Fear of Crowds, www.associatedcontent.com.
People who are shy and introverted are most likely to experience enochlophobia. Most people with the phobia feel unsafe around a lot of strangers, are just naturally very shy individuals, are afraid of being hunted by the new media, or feel the emotions of the people around them. Enchlophobic people are usually unable to handle: situations involving two or more other people, dating, parties, going to theaters, going to movie theaters, going to sports games, or going to the mall.

Now I know reading that if you know me would be like wow. Its true though Why do you think I go to the theater early in the afternoon because there are hardly any people there. Lately at work its been starting to become more prevalent I mean when the lobby is full of people I get incredibly uncomfortable which in turn causes me to hide in the back office until someone comes to the desk. The most recent example of this that I can recall is a few days ago we a group of Mennonites staying at the hotel. I show up for work and they are everywhere outside and my lobby is full of them. Now don't get me wrong I have nothing against them in general besides homemade clothes and different laws is weird but aside from that no issue but the sheer number of them down in the lobby just made me feel well ill in a sense. Thankfully one of my co-workers and friends Tina stayed a while to help me out with them being down there. She may never fully understand what that meant to me but she has my thanks either way.

Am I crippled by this? Not even a little I just don't like it. I can handle people just fine but when it gets so loud from so many people in one place I cant hear myself think just very annoying. Why did I decide to write about this? I don't know maybe seeing it laid out might in some way help me understand why it affects me the way it does. I cant really say but i do feel a little better getting it off my chest and out in the open. oh well off to do paperwork.

Back From The Dead? Nope Just Not lazy

Oh dear me it's been too long since I've written down my wealth of thoughts. So much has happened since I last wrote. I am officially 24 years old yay me, I didn't do anything exciting for my b-day I probably should have but I didn't I just relaxed and enjoyed the day and it was a good day, well any day you get multiple cakes is a good day in my book. If my last post was any indicator of how things at work are things have greatly improved. I finally got a laptop so the whole comp thing is a non issue now hooray i know. On a more remorseful note my boss was let go recently for a number of reasons which I am sure I a responsible for some of. Don't get me wrong the situation wasn't the best but there was no real resolution to my issues with her. I want to wish her the best on whatever she may do in the future and hope she doesn't hate me. cause I feel like I am mainly responsible for her being let go. Others say its not me but It doesn't really change the way I feel about it. Now that she's gone we have no "boss" sure we have a sort of chain of command but no structure of leadership to speak of. With that emptiness of leadership in mind I am contemplating throwing my name in the hat for consideration for the job. It's incredibly scary to me because I don't like change and I don't know how good of a boss I'd be. The girls I work with well all but one say I'd be a great boss I just don't know. I mean the job aspect of it I can handle I pretty much do it anyway I think maybe its the added responsibility or the fact that id be in a position of power. I am supposed to write an email to the owner regarding my interest which I have yet to do cause I'm a pansy it would seem. Oh well I guess I still have plenty of thinking to do on the whole thing. All I can do is put it out there and hope for the best.

Like Taking The Kettle Off The Burner

Time is an odd gift. Most people take time for granted and very few value it. After my rant yesterday I took some time and eased back and decided to evaluate the situation on a clearer less frustrated head. That being said it still doesn't sit well but I am no longer in a "rage" if you will. The more I thought about it the more solutions to cope with it I found, for example cant watch movies get a portable DVD player since my previous one broke that way I can still be doing hotel business on the computer while all the while enjoying a cinematic adventure. That just one of the many things I thought of once I took the time to try and understand instead of freaking out. It also came to my attention that one person ruined it for the rest of us. Which is still uncalled for since everyone shouldn't be punished for one persons mistake. Lately things around work have been good but there are certain aspects which create a sense of confusion in me. It's almost like the things I say go in one ear and out the other, I tell someone something and nothing changes. why? I often wonder why I don't get taken seriously but so few, is it my jolly demeanor? my pleasant way I tell people things? or does my personality just make me dismissible? I know I tend to have a very positive outlook most of the time and when I'm around people I tend to be funny and loud. Does that make it OK to just take the things I say and brush them under the rug like dust? No. But since I have what seems like no backbone because I don't like change and sometimes if I try to bring something up that I am upset about that frustration get in turn get ugly and that's when bad things happen. So I decided to try and relax more like the title says take the kettle off the burner. I give this advice to some of my friends and I think its about time I follow in my own wisdom. I know lately my words have a sense of angst or maybe depressed anger I apologize sometimes things that I have put away in the vault tend to come up when I think about things. So on that note ladies and gents I bid you a fond farewell for now and the next time I write my thoughts down I will be a 24 year old me so have fun out there and like Ellen I'm out!

Josh Is Gone to Celebrate 24Th Birthday lots of love!

Anarchy? What Else to do?

Our story begins on a night where I started off pleasantly enough but now a rage floods me like the Red River in North Dakota. Let me describe a normal night so you can get a basis for my recent upset. I get there around eleven or so depending on if I wake up late or not and from then until seven AM I am alone! On various days I will see the occasional guest checking in but most of the time it's just me back behind the desk alone just me. The only sliver of joy I have during my isolation is being able to watch movies since I love cinematic adventures and just having them on in the background makes my nights go by much faster. Cut to today I try to watch a movie and i see it just fine but wheres my audio? long story short apparently it was deleted! why because according to a memo in our logbook they are for checking in guests and hotel business only. Don't get me wrong I fully understand where the note is coming from but to tell the guy who not only has been here for about 3 years and the only one who works by themselves 255 days out of the year (that's minus my days off) is almost a slap in the balls, I say balls because a slap in the face doesn't hurt near as much. Why are they taking this simple pleasure away you might be asking? because if you don't adhere it will cause systematic failure and destroy the universe.
now granted virus's are a bitch but if I watch movies off of my portable hard drive I'm not downloading any bad things from the web so should I be punished in the same category as those who don't work alone like me? should I be given any special treatment? No but to do it all at once without discussing it with people is well messed up. The only thing I brought with me tonight was a DVD or two to watch and low and behold I cannot. I know I probably shouldn't be writing this as its viewable by everyone in the world but if I don't vent it out somewhere I feel bad things will happen I can just see me going bananas over the smallest thing because of my frustration level got too high. I would have personally preferred to have been told about this happening before if did because walking in unprepared is a very uncomfortable feeling and since I work alone I have no one to talk to and movies are my only friend in the cold night. sad? maybe a little but you try working a shift at night where you don't see a person the entire time and you might understand where I am coming from I kinda feel like a paper weight if I cant even watch a movie to pass the time just sit there and try not to die.

Disclaimer if you will :
I know that makes me seem like I dislike my job or my bosses I don't I actually love my job I am good at it I am just frustrated with the way things are being handled and the lack of communication is killing me.

twiddling my thumbs for the next so many hours
Josh Out!

Controversy? Or Just Plain Spite?

Wii's reputation under fire
A watchdog group slams the release of a violent video game for Nintendo's "family-friendly" Wii.

The year 2009 wow we've come along way haven't we? In some respects yes and others no. One of the No's is a subject to heated debates, criticism, studies, and "watchdog" groups. If you didn't notice from the above headline I am referring to Video Games. Yes the beloved hobby is again under scrutiny for yet another absurd reason, the release of violent game!? The reason this story bugs me is because the only reason its even a story is because the game in question (Madworld) is being released on a supposedly family friendly console. Why should Nintendo's reputation come under fire for this release? lets look at the facts or blatant only fact that should even be considered shall we......

• The ESRB (Entertainment Software Rating Board) Rated Madworld M - Meaning its rated for mature audiences only. No one under 17 should play this game.

Now of course there will be kids who play this because some parents don't care. Whose fault is that Nintendo's? The Store that sold the game? The easy answer would be to place blame on them when in all actuality its the parents fault for not making sure the game content is appropriate for their children. It upsets me to think the form of media that I enjoy the most is in constant jeopardy since some people want to make an issue out of any small thing and make games a scapegoat to mask the real problem lack of education and responsibility. Now don't get me wrong the ESRB is doing a great job of trying to educate parents and others alike about the rating system and the purpose of it and for the most part it works very well. I know most game stores like Gamestop, Ebgames etc. will let the parent or adult know what the game contains to further make sure they know what the game will show their children. Lets face it we have all seen and heard worse things in every other form of media from movies to music. Yet Those forms of expression are protected from this kind of silly scrutiny and the get away with a ton more. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't let my kids ( if I had any) play games like madworld for the simple reason they are kids. The have no reason to play something like that, which my responsibility as a parent would come in and is it really the Wii's fault its starting to get some M rated games? No! Nintendo is simply trying to utilize and make sure all types young and old alike will be entertained with their fun console. I know this is the first of many stories to come out of this games release and that's a sad day if people just took more responsibility to monitor and understand what the ratings mean issues like this may just go away.

Set In Africa but having black people makes it racist WTF?

Another story that recently bugged me was the is Resident Evil Racist topic. The heat started with Resident Evil 4 where protagonist Leon goes to a country where the natives speak Spanish and he kills them because they're zombies not because they don't speak American. With the announcement of Resident Evil 5 a heated debate has taken almost center stage and stolen some of the games thunder since it is now a concern. So let me tell you the set up of the game so you can have your own opinion. The games for starters takes place in Africa where Chris Redfield is a B.S.A.A (B.S.A.A - Bio terrorism Security Assessment Alliance) operative tasked with investigating an incident in the desert. Soon you find the people of Kijuju are infected and you must unravel the mystery of what is happening and why. You are accompanied by your partner Sheeva Alomar on your journey. the racist topic came up as soon as it had a white guy shooting a group of black guys. Given the fact that A. The game takes place in AFRICA!!!!!! and B. Sheeva your partner is black. You would think the race card would be put away but no. After some time Capcom (games creator) decided to mix up the variety of people. So now even though I'm in a remote African village there an Asian zombie coming at me. I could go on and on with games with much higher racial overtones but who wants to go farther into the negative? I for one given the context was not offended by the game in anyway. True I am not black so my opinion might not mean anything but I think people need to lighten up and not let something like black zombies in Africa of all places spoil the fun.

If you want to help spread the word and Keep our games safe please feel free to visit

http://www.videogamevoters.org/

Through this website you can make your voice heard and join the fight to protect our games on the same level as movies, music or any other art form.

Always A Proud Gamer

Josh Out!

Who Watches The Watchmen? More Like Why Should I

Ok so I'm not one to write reviews or anything like that so I'll keep this short, Wait for the watchmen on dvd! The movie was long and arduous, the ending was anticlimactic, There is way too much blue cock, and the only real saving grace if any is the character Rorschach. First off the movie is like 3 hours long and I gotta say about two thirds of it is boring. Don't get me wrong when there was action it was good. damn good. but having never read the graphic novel which the film is based off I cant attest to how much exposition is in that. but if you go see the movie expect 2+ hours of talking and maybe 15 minutes of action. I went with a few people to see the movie and they loved it I don't see how. the ending was just trash there was no epic finish when you find out who's behind it all and that just outright pissed me off I mean I understood the ending but it was stupid in my opinion. Now I for one have seen plenty of cock in my day thanks to porn but The Watchmen decided to spring on me some shiny blue cock, alot of it. In almost every scene Dr.Manhattan (the blue guy) is in he's nude now the first time was ok it had context but I mean come on I don't really need to see that much full frontal male nudity unless I'm watching porn. Which leaves me with the one reason I actually enjoyed the movie and didn't fully hate it, Rorschach. Way back when I saw pictures of the Watchmen the rorschach character immediately caught my eye because of the mask. Which has an ever changing ink blot on it. Every scene Rorschach is in he is captivating not once have I wanted a movie about multiple characters to have them go away so I could see more of one, Rorschach was that compelling to me. His story arc was understandable and he was appropriately vicious, especially when you find out when and why Rorschach became Rorschach. I know I said I'd keep this short so I apologize but all in all the movie wasn't all that bad it wasn't that good either I left the theater with a sense of disappointment which I usually don't leave "super hero" movies with I don't know maybe I went in with the wrong idea like I was expecting alot more action or something but the movie (other than Rorschach) just didn't land with me I know I'm not the only one who didn't like it so at least I'm not alone in that regard. So the end was nigh with the watchmen it just took a long time to get to it.

Josh Out

It Feels Like Strings Are Holding Up My Eyes

So here I am once again sitting, writing in what I would call my most at ease when I'm a tad tired since usually when I write when I'm tired the line between insanity and rationality gets all blurred. Its in this state where my imagination flourishes, many of the ideas and sorted stories come from this place in my head. I mean where else would something I call scenario game come from? what is that game you might be asking, well I'll give you an example. A typical scenario game starts off with an absurd scenario like - So there we are swimming in the ocean after a good snorkel session and we're wading in the water when all of a sudden a shark attacks me! luckily I manage to escape but I am still bleeding so we start to swim for the boat when we get close what do we see? terrorist have taken over the boat! what do we do? do we stay in the now blood filled water with hungry sharks? or do we risk it and try to get the boat back from the terrorists? Now after the scenario is said it is up to whoever is playing to thing of fun and creative solutions to the scenario the outcomes are often hilarious. The reason I like this game is its exercises your imagination and it can be pretty fun depending on who you play it with as with most games. the scenarios can be anything you can think of which makes it a blast. So I think thats all for now of course I could ramble on forever but I will save that for another day.

Josh Out!

Germs Sometimes Its Better If You Dont

So as an arrogant person that I am I have this whole ego problem and I like to say "Oh I never get sick I haven't been sick in blah blah" and now that I have a sort of head cold thing Im wondering if its better I dont say that anymore or just stick to my egocentric guns and once I heal be an ass like before. One has to wonder did I get sick because I thought I was in no few words invincible to germs? I mean a girl I work with is terrified of germs and if anyone so much as coughs she is all over the place with disinfectant, and there I am licking my ball that I was bouncing on the ground outside no more than a few minutes prior to prove my lack of fear when it comes to germs. Foolish? Gross? I'd say so. So why the brash lack of respect for germs? I dont know I mean I should be much more hesitant about things like licking a dirty ball since I like most folks in my age range dont have any form of health insurance. Why you may ask? is it a matter of money? principle? or some other factor? To answer that question my response would be I dont know. I mean money for the first time since I can remember is not an issue so why dont I get some form of protection? The reason is unknow maybe I dont want anymore bills to have worry about or maybe I dont want to have something I wont use except rarely. The questions sometimes dont have answers even though the question isnt a difficult one. I know its weird Hey thats pretty much what I do. so I dont know if this has made any sense or not but I will summarize to these few words............Respect The Germ! they may be small but they can mess you up like an angry midget.


Josh out!