Like Taking The Kettle Off The Burner

Time is an odd gift. Most people take time for granted and very few value it. After my rant yesterday I took some time and eased back and decided to evaluate the situation on a clearer less frustrated head. That being said it still doesn't sit well but I am no longer in a "rage" if you will. The more I thought about it the more solutions to cope with it I found, for example cant watch movies get a portable DVD player since my previous one broke that way I can still be doing hotel business on the computer while all the while enjoying a cinematic adventure. That just one of the many things I thought of once I took the time to try and understand instead of freaking out. It also came to my attention that one person ruined it for the rest of us. Which is still uncalled for since everyone shouldn't be punished for one persons mistake. Lately things around work have been good but there are certain aspects which create a sense of confusion in me. It's almost like the things I say go in one ear and out the other, I tell someone something and nothing changes. why? I often wonder why I don't get taken seriously but so few, is it my jolly demeanor? my pleasant way I tell people things? or does my personality just make me dismissible? I know I tend to have a very positive outlook most of the time and when I'm around people I tend to be funny and loud. Does that make it OK to just take the things I say and brush them under the rug like dust? No. But since I have what seems like no backbone because I don't like change and sometimes if I try to bring something up that I am upset about that frustration get in turn get ugly and that's when bad things happen. So I decided to try and relax more like the title says take the kettle off the burner. I give this advice to some of my friends and I think its about time I follow in my own wisdom. I know lately my words have a sense of angst or maybe depressed anger I apologize sometimes things that I have put away in the vault tend to come up when I think about things. So on that note ladies and gents I bid you a fond farewell for now and the next time I write my thoughts down I will be a 24 year old me so have fun out there and like Ellen I'm out!

Josh Is Gone to Celebrate 24Th Birthday lots of love!