One Week took so much from the world, makes you wonder why?

Gone This week

Ed McMahon, Farrah Fawcet, Michael Jackson, and finally Billy Mays.

How can one week take away so many great icons? It makes me sad to think that they're gone. Within days of each other no less its just shocking to think that they are no longer around to entertain and delight the masses. When I think about them I am filled almost immediately with a smile, for I will not mourn them too much, I will celebrate them. I feel they deserve to be celebrated since they brightened hearts and minds of a great many people. Of the Four mentioned above two of them were rough on me because each of them meant something to me. The first being Michael Jackson, wow that still even days after his death feels weird like it hasn't fully sunk in. The King Of Pop has been in my life since I was tot. I remember learning the thriller dance to perform for a talent show or when my friend Corey and would sing Rockin robin in class. The list can go on and on from the moonwalk which I still cant do no matter how hard I try big guys weren't meant to glide I guess. The sick lean in Smooth Criminal good stuff. I even remember he had a 3d ride at Disneyland I believe it was. Let us not forget he also had a game Moonwalker it was fun I mean what other game has a power that makes you and your enemies burst out in a dance number before the die? I for one cant think of another game like it. Michael lived a life some would call odd and strange. He had his ups and downs but I will always remember him for making me appreciate dance and showmanship no one since him has had such an influence on the music industry and lets face it the world. Now MJ is up in heaven entertaining all the angels like the icon he is. His music will live on and as he once said "If you enter this world knowing you are loved and you leave this world knowing the same, then everything that happens in between can be dealt with" I will always get a tingle down my spine when I hear Thriller cause the master of his craft is gone. all the best for his family. Mj gone too soon He will be missed

Michael Jackson 1958-2009 RIP MJ!

Another sad and Shocking story is Pitchman Billy Mays has also passed on. "His innovative role and impact on the growth and wide acceptance of direct response television cannot be overestimated or easily replaced; he was truly one of a kind" I honestly couldn't have said it any better myself. When I think of Billy I think of all those 3am infomercials from everything to oxi-clean to the dual saw. He almost made me buy stuff so late at night. I was always entertained when one of his infomercials would pop up I would generally watch his more than most because he was so energetic and seemed like he was having a great time doing what he did. Infomercials will never feel the same now that one of the greats is gone. I know seeing his infomercials at night is going to bring a smile to my face since as I said before he was so good at it. Billy you will be missed.

Billy Mays 1958-2009 One of the best pitchmen ever RIP!


It almost feels odd to think that all of this personality was taken away from the world so suddenly. All will be missed greatly.


Josh Out!

Coping with Enochlophobia

I guess I should start off by explaining what Enochlophobia is. Well basically Enochlophobia is a fear of large groups or crowds or to get all technical like

Enochlophobia is the fear of large crowds. This social phobia is a paralyzing fear that can result in the sufferer's fear manifesting in avoiding anxiety-raising situations (running from the situation), having tantrums, crying, excessive sweating, freezing, excessive blushing, or stammering continuously. It stems from the fear of being trampled in a crowd, getting a deadly disease from people within the crowd, getting lost in the crowd, or feeling insignificant when surrounded by a crowd.
" This fear is one that can possibly be genetic and affects women more often than it affects men. Some get so fearful while in crowded areas until they experience chest pains as if having a heart attack, but are actually having a panic attack due to being overly anxious."-- Barbara Burgess, author of Enoclophobia: Fear of Crowds, www.associatedcontent.com.
People who are shy and introverted are most likely to experience enochlophobia. Most people with the phobia feel unsafe around a lot of strangers, are just naturally very shy individuals, are afraid of being hunted by the new media, or feel the emotions of the people around them. Enchlophobic people are usually unable to handle: situations involving two or more other people, dating, parties, going to theaters, going to movie theaters, going to sports games, or going to the mall.

Now I know reading that if you know me would be like wow. Its true though Why do you think I go to the theater early in the afternoon because there are hardly any people there. Lately at work its been starting to become more prevalent I mean when the lobby is full of people I get incredibly uncomfortable which in turn causes me to hide in the back office until someone comes to the desk. The most recent example of this that I can recall is a few days ago we a group of Mennonites staying at the hotel. I show up for work and they are everywhere outside and my lobby is full of them. Now don't get me wrong I have nothing against them in general besides homemade clothes and different laws is weird but aside from that no issue but the sheer number of them down in the lobby just made me feel well ill in a sense. Thankfully one of my co-workers and friends Tina stayed a while to help me out with them being down there. She may never fully understand what that meant to me but she has my thanks either way.

Am I crippled by this? Not even a little I just don't like it. I can handle people just fine but when it gets so loud from so many people in one place I cant hear myself think just very annoying. Why did I decide to write about this? I don't know maybe seeing it laid out might in some way help me understand why it affects me the way it does. I cant really say but i do feel a little better getting it off my chest and out in the open. oh well off to do paperwork.

Back From The Dead? Nope Just Not lazy

Oh dear me it's been too long since I've written down my wealth of thoughts. So much has happened since I last wrote. I am officially 24 years old yay me, I didn't do anything exciting for my b-day I probably should have but I didn't I just relaxed and enjoyed the day and it was a good day, well any day you get multiple cakes is a good day in my book. If my last post was any indicator of how things at work are things have greatly improved. I finally got a laptop so the whole comp thing is a non issue now hooray i know. On a more remorseful note my boss was let go recently for a number of reasons which I am sure I a responsible for some of. Don't get me wrong the situation wasn't the best but there was no real resolution to my issues with her. I want to wish her the best on whatever she may do in the future and hope she doesn't hate me. cause I feel like I am mainly responsible for her being let go. Others say its not me but It doesn't really change the way I feel about it. Now that she's gone we have no "boss" sure we have a sort of chain of command but no structure of leadership to speak of. With that emptiness of leadership in mind I am contemplating throwing my name in the hat for consideration for the job. It's incredibly scary to me because I don't like change and I don't know how good of a boss I'd be. The girls I work with well all but one say I'd be a great boss I just don't know. I mean the job aspect of it I can handle I pretty much do it anyway I think maybe its the added responsibility or the fact that id be in a position of power. I am supposed to write an email to the owner regarding my interest which I have yet to do cause I'm a pansy it would seem. Oh well I guess I still have plenty of thinking to do on the whole thing. All I can do is put it out there and hope for the best.