So as I sit here on a rainy Sunday, I am able to take some time and reflect on some ramblings, and the way I am.
Lately I have noticed some things regarding myself that I both enjoy and lament. On one hand I am incredibly quick with my with and humor, to the point I even wonder how I do it sometimes. Then we move to the other hand I am an ass, sadly I would even say I am quick with that side as well. Two sides of a coin, both different and both a part of me. I do wish though that I was able to curve the side that leads me to be an ass. I am not sure what causes me to be this way from time to time, but it just comes out. Maybe my brain is so geared towards reacting quickly that I often don't think about what I am saying. I for the most part have nothing going on up there, which I know sounds like a self insult. Trust me it isn't, I let it be clear so that way whatever pops in comes out. Even though when I do this the asshole parts slip out just as fast as the humor. I would like to slow it down and think before I speak but I find it harder to do so every day. Whether that is due to my stubbornness or something else I am not sure. I just need to find a way to fix it. I don't like people thinking of me in a negative light, I imagine people still will regardless of whether or not I can fix it. That's fine but if I can put forth the effort to try and alter my personality just enough to slow down the responses than maybe I can stop being an ass. That is the hope anyway.
Another thing I have noticed lately is a spike in my creativity. I seem to be able to make a story out of practically nowhere. Example I was talking about a stapler and I went on a Toy Story like, well, story about the stapler and his fears of being replaced by an automatic stapler. I went on and on about it off the top of my head. It all flowed out of nowhere. The words and images just came and I told them. Another example I went on a flow about Petey the Parrot and the hunt for the pirate treasure. Those are just a few of the countless things that have popped in randomly out of thin air. I would like to be able to transfer the things I say to paper. The problem I have is, with a lot of my stuff being spontaneous and out of nowhere, trying to recall it later proves difficult. I have sat down a time or two to try and capture the magic of when I first said something. I have yet to fully encapsulate what I had when I first said it. It isn't for lack of trying, I still have all the imagery and ideas in my head, it's just getting them out seems to be easier for me when I do it orally.
Lets move on shall we...
